Sad, depressed, angry, frustrated, hopeless, scared, sceptical...I feel all this and more...maybe you share my feelings if you are a citizen of a country which has had to face quite many trials all these years after gaining its 'independence' 60 years ago. When it severed its allegiance to one, it had unconsciously inherited a package that had more shocks than surprises and has proved to be a burden that none would have anticipated nor desired.
You would share similar sentiments of defeat if you had felt (and still do feel) proud of this nation, loved the people (no matter from which state of the union they are from), the land, the 'chaos' (to the world outside, but for us, our identity), the strong smells and sentiments, the colours, the noise and everything that marks us as unique in the eyes of our neighbours far and near.
Maybe you might have that feeling of despair, the thought that has been echoing the last two days in many of our minds that "enough is enough"...
We are a resilient lot, yeah, and we are proud to be so; but can anybody be stretched forever? For that, we need to be either oblivious to the things around us, as most of us are (the numb variety, who are short sighted with minds short circuited) or who never belonged to this place anyway (the desi phirangis for whom the dude culture is more gripping than the bhai ones).
If you still have some leftover love, pride, feeling of belonging to this nation that is being ripped apart, wake up, be alert, be aware of your rights. It is time that the people showed the politicians, who grapple with each other even in such times for cheap political mileage, the real India.
A nation no longer deserves democracy if the people in it cease to be patriotic.